Timeless words

In a little more than two weeks it will be 2019.

This past year has been a rollercoaster for me, and as I reflect back on the events that played out I am grateful for God’s providence through it all. Yet, despite the evidence of God’s faithfulness I can’t deny the doubt and uncertainty that still lingers.

Now this isn’t an emotion that is new to me. I imagine all of us, even those of us who know we should put our full trust in the Lord, can’t resist the fear that all of us feel. We still have questions. We are still uncertain. We still want to control everything. There is no escaping it.

However, this is nothing to be ashamed of. These feeling are normal and for the most part just depending on the situation. The tension is needed and healthy. It stretches us to trust more and in return deepen our faith. It pushes us through our self-limiting beliefs into a new horizon.

Today I was reminded to persevere, and ironically that encouragement came from something I wrote twelve years ago. God persevered for me then and He will again. And the same is true for you.

The Uncertainty of the Future
“Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, for when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him” (James 1:12)

The title of this note suggests that I have ill feelings of the future, but that is no where near the truth. Yes, I do sometimes get frustrated with God’s mysterious plans for my life, my impatience takes hold of life, but God does not reveal everything in out time, but in His.

The world has its pressures, in my case in work, in school, in relationships, and so on. As frustrated as it becomes when these aspects of my life don’t go my way or fit my schedule, I have to trust that God has a reason he distances me from the things my heart so much desire.

Often I feel alone, left out, finishing in last place, but I’m coming to the understanding God wants it that way. Even though I’m on the brink of a new stage of my life it doesn’t mean I am done learning. I have yet to grasp God’s plans for me and yet to witness the shower of blessings he will pour upon my life.

Where as some are moving out of their homes, getting married, and getting done with school, I am not. I do wish things could be different and I could embrace a new part of my life, but where I am living, the fact that I am still single, and that I am continuing my education is God’s will for me now.

As frustrated as I get sometimes I have to except it. God will not forsake me. He knows the desires of hearts, and he will meet those desires that are pure in his eyes.

Really don’t know why I felt compelled to right this, but maybe in some way it will speak to a reader that is struggling in the same way. We will all persevere.